Wednesday, June 14, 2006

june 14, 2006

last night i watched the heart is deceitful above all things and it was much better than i thought it would be. it is funny how much of the special features focus on the hoax. but i thought asia argento was beautiful in it like some sort of uma thurman/courtney love hybrid.

i also watched in the realms of the unreal about insane janitor hermit artist henry darger which i have wanted to see since i missed it on PBS.

i had very strange dreams.

Wednesday, June 7, 2006

june 7, 2006

finished watching very last episode of 6 ft under last night. cried horribly during scene with claire and her mother.

joined up with netflix once again. have also watched the last time i committed suicide based on letters by neal cassady, but it was horrible. keanu reeves and gretchen mol were there.

also watched bukowski documentary. scene with him fighting with his gf/wife! was brutal and felt too intimate and uncomfortable. was fairly good though.

last tango in paris and my first mister should be in my mailbox when i get home.

Sunday, June 4, 2006

june 4, 2006

tomorrow i will check out fante's ask the dust after work. ok, remember.

excerpt from an email TO adam:

...to having an orgasm as written in something by gertrude stein. this is what i have learned tonight.

gertrude stein.

ok i am doing a lot better living on my own. i mean i am not crying every day anymore. now it is just a dry spot in the back of my throat or when my stomach jumps into my heart and i have to vomit. sometimes without you means i have to vomit.

now it is just most days, but it is not everyday.

hmm.

are you missing me or are you getting over me?


oh how desperate and sad am i!

another:

i like my therapist. he doesn't spout nonsense at me. he mostly listens and asks questions and turns things around to a different angle. every friday @ 9am. he said i am too young to resort to the rocking chair and knitting. and i said but i have two cats already.

the episode of 6 ft under that we thought was the last episode was not the last episode. there are episodes after nate dies. we have not seen the last episode. i will see the last episode!

ok, i miss the way your shirts smell like florida water and deoderant.

Saturday, June 3, 2006

june 3, 2006

god i have to stop.

WalMart
nikon coolpix L2 camera - $229
mailing supplies - $2
sandpaper (for chair found on trash day) - $3
black gloss paint (for chair)- $4
paintbrushes (for chair) - $1.50

JoAnn Fabrics
papers for zine/book projects 5/$1 - $5 total
floral remnant material - $3.70

Super 10 Dollar Store
black flats - $5

KMart
6 pairs of panties - $16
window shade (doesn't fit) - $8
flavored water 2 @ $.79 each
colored pencils - $1.49
black flip flops - $6
teen spirit strawberry deoderant - $2.29

UNNECCESARY!

All I went out for was a camera. The old one was dropped on the bricks of my fireplace and no longer works.

Thursday, June 1, 2006

june 1, 2006

things to do

charge batteries
yoga dvd
abs video
dishes
laundry
directions to counseling center
financial aid
photos
work on website
emails