worn - november 30, 2007 day

scarf - hobby lobby
tee - gap outlet
skirt - agora vintage on m and i's thanksgiving trip to athens, ga. the girls there are so very sweet, so if you're in the area you should stop by.
tights - dkny via tjmaxx/ross/whatever
boots - target

excuse the cat litter.

the usb cable of my heart

this morning i accidently took tylenol allergy nighttime and as i wrote m it has been an absolute battle with my eyelids. i thought after four hours it'd go but it hasn't and my throat is scratchy and my nose runny and sometimes i am completely frustrated at this typing out of little puddles meaning nothing when really i want to write something about how beautiful m is to me and how i can't wait to see his smile round my evening door and lolling about a sunshine morning bed, but no words add up to what it really means.

letting go

books i let linger on my desk a little longer than the others:

looking back on my first visit to NYC with a realization of happiness and change and the love of a contented today

i went to visit him because i was still hopeful even after five months had passed and even after he'd walked out two times before and on the second day he angered and almost left me alone in the middle of times square and i stood right there and cried not so much because he was leaving me and not so much because my heart was broken but because i'm just a girl from mississippi and never before had i been to such a place and i was lonely and frightened as if my mom had let go of my toddler hand and every face i looked up at wasn't hers and all i could do was stand in the middle of the aisle and cry and hope she found me there and that's what i did until he told me i was pathetic and he told me i was naive and we went back to the apartment then but i knew it was finished, it wasn't enough, it never had been enough.

one last purchase

with the wardrobe refashion challenge starting saturday i decided i'd make one final new purchase with the arrival of tomorrow's paycheck.



i've been wanting a white shoe suitable for winter for a bit now. i've had my eyes on these from steve madden, thinking of them for weeks.

library work.

today at work i leaned in to bury my nose in the smell of a book, not to satiate a love of book smells, but because it smelled of pine straw twirled and crushed about the fingers on a golden rust hued sun-warmed day. then i must've spent thirty minutes accidentally reading a book on robert kennedy and the death of american idealism and everything felt rotten with hope and heartbreak and violence and change. it's hard letting some books pass quickly through my hands; i keep a small notebook at my side and constantly jot down names and titles and ideas. a few weeks ago working on 505 fields in our bibliographic records i began to fall in love with chapter titles and thought of using them somehow and a list began to grow and grow. a lovely few from a collection of many:

Growing like topsy
I like talkers better than beauties
Jane Austen faints
Holding hands for safety
The man who couldn't grow a beard
What we cannot speak about we must pass over in silence
Enter a soldier. Later: enter another
Airplane : or, how he talked to himself as if reciting poetry
Shelley's heart and Pepys's lobsters
A past to do justice to the present
Woman who was a red deer dressed for the deer dance
In solidarity with the almond trees
A charming gift for false intimacy
What we ate that day after church
A relationship of overlapping conversations
My reply to the general
How to talk to girls at parties
Goodbye to all that
"It's terrible" or "It's fine"
A charming gift for false intimacy

on a studious girl in the library who notices how i dress and smiles at me appreciatively.

every morning when i walk into work i pass through the student study area and every morning sitting at a table in the front of the room is a fresh faced most likely freshman blonde haired girl with hair pulled back into a ponytail wearing jeans and a tshirt. the kind of girl who's pretty without having to be pretty and who never knew what it was like to be looked over in favor of her prettier friend or what it'd be like to have someone forget her name or not recall her face when her memory of them was so crystal clear. the kind of girl who when she turned around and smiled at me the other morning as i came in made me feel like today i was noticed, like today was something.

read - noone belongs here more than you by miranda july

purchased @ malaprops bookstore, asheville, nc
started: november 9, 2007
finished: november 20, 2007

la fiesta

we're serious about our salsa.

wardrobe refashion

In an attempt to curb spending and appease my starved creative urges I've joined up for next round of Wardrobe Refashion starting in December. I pledged 4 months.

The Rules

• 1.
  No buying new! (handmade is excepted; So this allows for Etsy purchases etc!!) All clothing must be Recycled, Renovated, Preloved or Thrifted, or Handmade only for the term. Employment related and special needs clothing (ie sports, school), shoes and undies are excepted from the rules, although you are encouraged to have a go at making these.
• 2.
  In extreme circumstances, maybe a special event, or the worlds greatest and most amazing never to be repeated sale that you simply can not pass up, you may use the Get out of Refashionista Jail Free card. You are able to use this card once during the 2 month part of your contract; ie 1 for 2 months, 2 for 4 months etc. Of course you need to fess up on the blog and display the button!
• 3.
  You must post on the blog at least once a week to let the community know what you've been up to. This will not only give you brag points, but inspire and encorouge others! Of course you need to display the button on your blog and have copied the pledge in at least one post, and provide a link to your pledge under the button.
• 4.
  You need to be honest and admit when you've fallen off the Refashionista Wagon! Go directly to Refashionista Jail, do not pass GO and do not collect $200! Apply for parole once there.

janez drnovsek

i ran across this article on slovenian president janez drnovsek via boing boing which has made my morning. a fascinating person.

my favorite bits below.
full article here.


Bald, monkish and skeletally thin, Drnovsek has abandoned his capital for a mountain retreat. He no longer speaks to his Government. He boycotts state occasions, and disappears for weeks at a time. He has turned vegan, talks like a New Age mystic of his quest for “higher consciousness” and “inner balance”, and communicates with the Slovenian people through books on spirituality. He set out to tackle the problems of the world from a country smaller than Wales, and has become a champion of progressive causes.

He accepted that some people thought that he had gone crazy, but was not perturbed. They do not understand, he said in soft, heavily accented English. “Why should I worry what people of this level of consciousness should say or think about me? This is so irrelevant.” He used a Chinese philosopher’s tale to illustrate his point: “The frog in its well was convinced that this well was the whole world. And then came a turtle from the sea. The turtle told this frog that there was a big ocean and the well was nothing. The frog said: ‘OK. This turtle is crazy’.”

He abandoned conventional medicine because his doctors told him that they could not cure him. He dabbled with Indian and Chinese healers. He gave up meat, dairy products and alcohol in favour of organic vegetables and home-baked bread. He fasted for days at a time. He also sought to nourish his soul, leaving Ljubljana for a remote home set in beautiful beech forests south of the Slovenian capital. He lives there alone, reading and writing, without so much as a television for company since his dog died. He says modern man has lost contact with nature, but it is “very beneficial for health, for body but also for soul . . . Somehow we can purify ourselves of all negativities that are concentrated in towns and urban centres where there is all this activity and stress.”

Drnovsek has now abandoned his conflict-resolution efforts. He tried his best, but was dismissed as “this crazy Slovenian President”, he says. “I came to the conclusion that the only way to change the world is to change the consciousness of as many individual people as possible, and then the pressure on politicians will increase to act differently.”

He has once again become an absentee President. He spurns official receptions. He boycotted Slovenia’s National Day celebrations in June. “ At a certain level of spirituality . . . it becomes more difficult to do these things of this material life,” he says. “You feel the ephemerality of everything, and if you know your activity will have no real effect, you become more selective about what you do and what not. I still have activities, but practically I stopped all unnecessary political activities – those involved with other politicians.”

worn - november 19, 2007

dress and jacket - target
hat - wet seal
necklace - ebay
shoes - payless
jeans - rave

harbison forest

a sunday stroll

photos by c (except the ones of him, of course):







the talking hand:


my favorite:

erin fetherston for target

erin fetherston for target is so very perfect. none of the other designers have excited me quite nearly as much, most have disappointed really except perhaps for the luella bartley line (of which i only have this shirt). but erin fetherston's as lovely as a girl could ever want.

saturday, november 11, 2007

on the way home we stopped
at pearson falls in saluda, sc.
the leaves were amazing.

saturday, november 11, 2007

asheville, nc.

brunch at mayfel's:






on the side of a futon store: